Monday, February 8, 2010

Ek sal dit maak/ I will make it through

Verlede week, amper heel week was dit vir my ‘n moeilike week gewees.

Dis soos Louie Giglio in sy Dvd, Hope when life hurts most noem, dis soos “white water rafting” op die Zambezi rivier, waar jou boot rondgegooi word in die stroomversnellings,en as jy te relaxed is daaroor, jy soos ‘n kanon koeël oorboord geskiet word. En dat jy in die stil, rustige waters gebruik om weer jou roeispane en die res van jou toerusting weer regtrek vir die volgende aanslag.

So ‘n rustige genade-dag het ek Saterdag ervaar. Maar toe gebeur Sondag en die bakkie ongeluk voor die kerk…

Gisteraand, het ek gekom by ‘n punt gekom van ‘n emosionele laagtepunt.Ek het gevoel of ek net mooi genoeg gehad het van alles, dat ek net wou wegkripeer.

Maar ek het vanoggend opgestaan. En dis ‘n goeie begin. Ek het nie bly lê nie. God was nog altyd getrou en betroubaar in alle omstandighede, en Hy sal nie nou stop om só te wees nie.

Daar is ‘n song van Kutless, met die naam “Promise of a Lifetime, waarna ek vanoggend geluister, en dit was so ‘n inspirasie…hieronder is die woorde.

1.I have fallen to my knees
As I sing a lullaby of pain
I’m feeling broken in my melody
As I sing to help the tears go away
Then I remember the pledge you made to me

CHORUS:
I know you’re always there
To hear my every prayer inside
I’m clinging to the promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

2. Will you help me fall apart
Pick me up, take me in your arms
Find my way back from the storm
And you show me how to grow
Through the change
I still remember the pledge you made to me

BRIDGE:
I am holding on to the hope I have inside
With you I will stay through every day
Putting my understanding aside
And I am comforted


Die Song het my gehelp om weer die stukke op te tel, en saam met God die pad vorentoe te stap. Want God is Immanuel - God met ons.

Dalk was verlede week nie so aaklig nie….

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Last week was a terrible week for me as a person in dimensions of me as a person.

Like Louie Giglio puts it in his DVD called “Hope when life hurts most”, life can be compared to the experience he had, with a group of friends, doing white water rafting on the Zambezi River.

You will have times in life that you will pass through rapids, sometimes being hurled overboard. But then there is the calm stretches of river, which after being hurled out of the boat for the first time, you would brace yourself for the future “rapids” in life.

I had a couple of rapids during the course of last week, with a minute period of Grace and calmness on Saturday, just to find myself in a rapid on Sunday, when of course the car accident happened in front of the church…

Yesterday evening I was an emotional wreck, not even really motivated to carry on with life.

But, then the morning came, and like the Psalmist said, “Joy comes in the morning”. Getting up from bed was already a good start. It reminds me of the resurrection of Jesus from the Grave. Jesus rose and from that point the world would not be the same again.

I’ve listen to a song by the band Kutless, called ‘promise of a Lifetime’, which really inspired me.

1. I have fallen to my knees
As I sing a lullaby of pain
I’m feeling broken in my melody
As I sing to help the tears go away
Then I remember the pledge you made to me

CHORUS:
I know you’re always there
To hear my every prayer inside
I’m clinging to the promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

2. Will you help me fall apart
Pick me up, take me in your arms
Find my way back from the storm
And you show me how to grow
Through the change
I still remember the pledge you made to me

BRIDGE:
I am holding on to the hope I have inside
With you I will stay through every day
Putting my understanding aside
And I am comforted


This song really helped me to pick up the broken pieces again of my life, and at the same time that God is walking with me, so I am not alone on this journey through life – even if it feels like it. God calls Himself Immanuel which translates to “God with Us.

In hindsight, maybe last week wasn’t all that bad for me….